Friday, April 13, 2012

Writing Again


Well, after riotous complaints regarding my lack of writing, I’m clicking away again!  In reality, writing is easier to edit and expound upon later. 

I’m not sure how much I should write about school.  I already see the difficulties in teaching in a different country; some of the challenge is based on culture, but much of it originates in differing teaching philosophies (which are also affected by culture, I realize).   For example, Taiwanese parents want their students to be successful.  They’ve defined “successful” as getting a high score on their university entrance test.  In order to do that, the school system was set up to have longer school days, cram school at night, Saturday school, sometimes Sunday school, and summer school.  Students are under so much pressure that they choose to sleep during class or socialize if there is any sort of pause or monotony in the lesson.  Many teachers allow this, knowing the students are under pressure.  It might be easy for teachers to get the mentality that “one lesson doesn’t matter”, “they need the sleep more”, “they will just get this again in cram school”.  So, I am struggling with an overall cultural philosophy that sets extremely high standards, which, when translated into expectations for individual lessons on a day-to-day basis, is fairly low.  It seems like a game of telephone that starts clear and ambitious with administration and is mistranslated down to each classroom until it’s unrecognizable. 

Don’t get me wrong; I’ve seen some great lessons and great teachers.  But I am wondering how I myself will fit into this system, as I always want to maximize the time that I have in class, sometimes to a fault.  I need to have a plan as to how I will react to each situation, but I know it will change and evolve as I gain experience actually doing it.

Another teacher here, James, gave me the opportunity to come into his 12th grade class and be interviewed and make dialogue with the students.  I learned that they are extremely anxious about taking the big university placement test in May (Mom and Dad, I kind of wanted to tell them “don’t study! Be a golf caddy instead!” I didn’t.)  No one talked, and I literally had to pry questions and answers out of their mouth.  (For example, I pointed at a student and said, “ask me where I’m from”.  I wasn’t going to give them the easy way out and just talk the whole time).  After a time, they opened up a little bit.  I told them my personal narrative of wanting to quit AP Spanish my senior year of high school, but because I was willing to make mistakes (which is difficult for anyone, but especially in this culture) and be active and involved in class and because I didn’t quit, I learned so much.  I didn’t pass my AP test, but it opened so many other doors for me, and in the end changed my life.  I also told them to study as hard as they can, but in the end, a test does not make or break them.  They can still be successful with a bad test score.  The relief in the room was palpable. I saw it in their eyes.  It was the most reaction I got the whole 45 minutes with them.  Then one student asked me, “how do you relax when you are stressed?”  I thought for a moment, and then answered with Psalm 42:8, “Be still and know that I am God.”  It’s awkward to pull so hard to get so little dialogue and honesty out of students, but in the end I think that’s what I have to do.  I’m sitting here now and thinking of what I should have said differently, but I need to just “be still” and let God take it from here. 

It was so clear yesterday that we could see the mountains surrounding the city which are usually hidden in a hazy smog.  I was told that it's normal to not see the mountains for months at a time, and usually only after typhoon rains.  Another occurrence-- my friends have been teasing me that there are earthquakes when there really aren't any, and of course I'm so gullible that I believe them.  During supper on Friday we experienced a REAL earthquake that shook our table for a few seconds.  At first I thought they were pulling a prank per usual, but I laughed when I realized I had just experienced my first real earthquake.

Today is a full day!  I went for a bike ride this morning in Forest Park, then biked to the next city.  It is extremely hot today and the sun is so intense!  Later tonight, we’re going to here the Taipei Symphony Orchestra because our friend Janice gave us free tickets. 

Gotta run, love you all!

Anna
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